I got my first tattoo last week. I'm thrilled with it, I love it, but I almost canceled because half an hour before my appointment, my dad called to tell me that our dog is dead. Or at least, he's almost certainly dead, he ran off into the forest a week before and never came home. I didn't want my tattoo associated with finding that out, but I'm glad I went through with it. I spent the next couple of days bursting in to tears at inappropriate moments, unable to stop thinking about all the terrible things that could have happened to our poor puppy. He was originally my mom's dog, so I had to tell her ... but I couldn't tell her the truth. I lied and said he died in his sleep so she wouldn't be as upset as me.

Now, of course, I can't cry to my usual support person about why I'm so upset, so I'm still struggling with it. But I did the right thing, her heart would've been utterly broken. Like my dad's is, he blames himself and he's just miserable. It just fucking sucks all the way around. I still can't really talk about him without crying.

And then I got a cold, just when I was starting to feel emotionally better. I've spent the last two days resting and sucking down juice and tea, and I think I actually feel worse than when I first got sick. Whining will end ... now.

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5 Responses
  1. Anonymous Says:

    I'm sorry to hear about your mom's puppy.

    What did you get a tatt of?

    Naseem

    ps- my blog has been deleted because of a psycho hacking stalker. :(


  2. Masquerade Says:

    I'm so sorry sweetheart!!! The loss of a pet is always tough especially when you don't know for sure what happened.

    I agree with Naseem, I'd love pictures of the tattoo, or at least a description.

    *hugs*


  3. purplegirl Says:

    Naseem, sorry about your psycho issues. :(

    If you guys want to see my tattoo, it's here: http://i807.photobucket.com/albums/yy355/purple_girl_photos/mytattoo.jpg

    Since it's one-of-a-kind I'm leery of posting it right out there on the blog for people to see.


  4. Masquerade Says:

    That's gorgeous!!! I'll admit though, when I first saw it I thought it said 'o hai!' and I was a little confused and also somewhat delighted, but then I realized what it really said XD


  5. purplegirl Says:

    heehee, that's funny. Maybe I'll get that on the other ankle. ;)