It's not really about fat anymore, after all. At least not most of the time. Now it's just random crap from my terribly exciting life. Maybe that'll be my new title. "Random Crap From The Terribly Exciting Of Your Average Short Fat Blonde". Or I'll think of something else terribly witty.

I've been both really busy and really bored lately. Working a lot; and 40 hours a week serving just kicks my ass. Part of that is because I need new shoes; my current ones are breaking down, and as soon as I put them on my knees start hurting. Yesterday, I could feel something in my right knee popping every step I took. Not really a good sign.

Other than that, it's been same old stuff. My house is a semi-wreck; I'm staying up too late and sleeping too much; I'm broke. I had to empty out my change/spare dollar bill jar to pay my rent--I had $200 in there, which was a lot more than I expected. But that was actually just more depressing, since that was my new car/trip to London to see my favorite band fund.

No luck finding another job, either; I think I'm screwed. If I weren't going back to school in the fall I'm sure I could find something, but having such limited hours soon is really screwing me. My best lead was working from home doing telephone stuff with a company my grandmother works for; but apparently they're only hiring people full-time.

Basically, I'm sorta screwed. I'll probably have to pay tuition out of pocket next semester; so I'll probably end up taking classes in the fall and working next January through August to pay it off, then taking another semester's worth of classes. And I'm not going to be able to get a new car, and I'm not going to be able to go see a-ha, and I'm just all sorts of bummed out right now.

At least I'm going to see Eric Clapton on the 21st, that's something to look forward to. And the new Harry Potter movie comes out next month. And I haven't seen Angels & Demons yet. Little things to look forward to. That's the key. Keep looking forward to the little things, and pushing forward, and eventually I'll dig myself out of this sucking hole of financial bullshit!

3 Responses
  1. Masquerade Says:

    *hugs you* I had to sell my Wii to make rent this month. I just got served with quit papers and I still don't have all the money I need :( I'm so irresponsible, so it's not that I don't have it, I just don't budget right.

    Anyway, I know how you feel. <3

  2. Simon Says:

    Hear hear. I'm lucky enough to have a fairly well paid job, but I suck at budgeting. Id rather spend the money now if it's in my pocket that put it aside for something 'just in case'. But when I spend the money, and then realize I need the money, I get very depressed. So when I get more money, I need to spend it on something to cheer myself up and the whole cycle starts again! Awesome I am not. The little things I'm looking forward to - surfing trip to the south coast at the end of the month. A new bike. Starting a new book tonight.
    We'll support each other through these difficult times!

  3. purplegirl Says:

    Masquerade, that friggin' sucks about you Wii! I want one, but when I had the money I talked myself out of it because I was pretty sure I'd end up in the same situation. I do okay with budgeting, sort of ... it's just with the ups and downs of waitressing, and the last month being more downs .... ugh.

    Simon, I totally used to do that. That's how I ended up with a large chunk of my $23000 credit card debt I've been fighting to pay off! I sometimes still will catch myself doing that, but I try to at least limit it to things from the dollar store. :)