So the geniuses at corporate have decided to change our uniform. Again. They've decided that instead of jeans, we have to wear black pants again in a few months. I guess it could be worse; they could be taking us back to khakis, which was just six kinds of wrong (khakis+restaurant=massively stained at the end of a single shift). Still, I'm not happy. Black shows things a lot easier the denim; it's not as comfortable; I have trouble finding ones I don't have to have hemmed; and I look like a short fat black blob. I hate it.

But I don't have a choice. So here's the quandry: I have several pairs of black slacks. But they're all just a little too tight to be comfortable. I could go up to a 24, but those are too loose and feel like they're going to fall off me, plus because they're a size bigger they're too long. Even petites. So I can either gain weight or lose some. I'm not even sure how to go about gaining weight--I'm already eating whatever I want, when I want to, in whatever amount I want, and I'm at a setpoint that hasn't changed in months. Plus, if I did that, I'd have to buy all new pants, and pay to get them hemmed. I already owe too much on my Lane Bryant account!

So as much as I hate it, I guess I'm going to try to lose some weight. I think if I just eat properly (meaning fruits and vegetables and proteins most of the time instead of macaroni and cheese followed by ice cream for dinner every night one week), that I'll stop retaining water and probably move back down to my other setpoint, where my pants fit last time, and is really only about seven pounds down.

The tricky part is going to be not falling into the stressed-out dieting mindset that comes along with any sort of restriction or intentional weight loss. The tricky part is going to be not to fall back into self-loathing, just because it's so societally ingrained. I think I'll be okay; but stupid goddamn corporate restaurant goons! Why couldn't they just leave me to my jeans? :)