I'm not sure why the birthday of one out of fifty-plus employees warranted a birthday cake--they don't do it for everyone. But when the chocolate cake with some sort of delicious creamy frosting was brought out ... well, it was 3 in the afternoon and I hadn't eaten all day and I chose to have a piece. And went back for a second about ten minutes later, which was much too sweet so I didn't eat it all. I don't know exactly how much I ate; no way to weigh or measure it there, and anyway that just smacks of Diet Behavior. But when I got home (after having a burrito for lunch too) I fell asleep for about five hours. Coincidence? Probably not.

Another thing that smacks of Diet Behavior? The all-or-nothing mentality that's now prodding me to go ahead and just have an entire unhealthy day--today is already "ruined" so why not go get some french fries or ice cream or something? Wouldn't it be better to have it now, today, rather than "ruining" another day?

I don't know. Part of me screams "DIET MENTALITY! This isn't a diet! I could have anything I want another day." And part of me is whispering .... "It is about health. And limiting unhealthy foods to a certain time period makes sense."

I don't know which voice to follow. If I had food in my house, it wouldn't really be an issue. I'd eat what I have. But the thing is .... I don't. I have lunch meat, and cheese, but I'm sort of craving a whole, real meal. Probably a side effect of my extremely sporadic eating over the last couple of days. I've basically been having one big meal and then sort of nibbling from there. Probably not the best approach.

It's ten minutes to midnight; I could go to the store or to McDonald's. Or just have lunch meat and cheese. Probably the best option. Saves money, saves time.

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